New year, new me...

Hi guys, 

I thought I'll do a blog post about my New Years resolution and explain why I chose this one in particular. 

Ever since I remember I've always set myself the same New Years resolution which was to stop eating lots of chocolate as I love chocolate especially the Lindt ones.

But I could never keep my resolution because let's just face it I love chicholate too much and couldn't resist it. And every year I felt bad about braking my resolution and even though I knew that there is a strong possibility that I will brake my resolution I always stuck with the chicholate one because I was young and didn't really have much to give up.

As soon as I turned 16 my view on resolutions has changed as I now fully understood that I will never be able to give up chicholate but also the whole meaning of giving something up so that year I decided to give up eating fish and even though that was 3 years ago and looking at my track record with breaking my resolution I have kept strong and haven't touched fish since that day. 

And now I have come to a time in my life that I can actually know what I have done wrong in my life and that if I can change it I will. 

So this brings me to this years resolution, for the year 2014 (it still feels weird writing this) I have decided to not trust people as much as I did in the previous years because I only get hurt in the process. 

Let me explain because most of you may not understand it but I actually put a lot of faith in people I meet because I see how they behave around me and I automatic lu think that they will be nice people, for instance my ex-manager for all of the interviews that I have attended and the amount of times I met her she seemed like a nice person and when my famil were telling me that she was the one that was responsible for the major delay in my work start date (more details on that in my previous blog post) I stood up for her and defended her only to be proven wright that she was mean and hates me once I really started working there as her bullying behaviour started on my first day. 

But my ex-manager isn't the only person that I have wrongly judged and defended because there is my aunt who pick on everyone and also people who I thought that were close to me but I don't really want to get into this. 

There for in the year 2014 I will be an I dependant young woman who will not be afraid to speak her mind and will not trust people as much as she did in the previous years and I will try to work on my anxiety because as they years have went on it has became worse and now is the time that I go back and try to deal with the problems. 

Aside from my resolutions I am plan job to make dramatic changes to my appearance but I will update you guys along the way.

Marta xxx